Tuesday, June 7, 2011
I'm so crazy about this little human. From the outside looking in there's nothing really exciting about being a stay-at-home mom, but that's not counting the fact that your heart gets ruined by overpowering feelings of love and adoration on a regular basis. Like, I love him so much I want to cry. That doesn't happen to me with just everyone, you know. I can be in the middle of being super stressed out or of griping about something.. and I look down to see a crooked smile and twinkling brown eyes gazing at me, and it melts me. It's a senseless sort of love. Being the kind of person that constantly analyzes life and its many components to the point where I irritate myself, it makes me glad to have a feeling come into my life that sweeps me off my feet and out of my brain. All the fears I have of failing to make people like me, or of making myself look like an idiot somehow.. they just aren't relevant when I'm with my baby. If I collapse on the floor and foam at the mouth for a while or develop a perpetual twitch, he still won't stop thinking well of me or being satisfied by what I have to offer him! Namely milk, cuddles, smiles and funny noises. Ahh, life is good.